To my dearest boy,

I love you, because you're always there for me when i'm upset.

I love you, because you're always there to cheer me up.

I love you, because you're always there to make me smile, no matter how upset i am.

I love you, because you're always there to lend me a listening ear.

I love you, because you're always there to lend me a shoulder to cry on.

I love you, because you're always there to give me a hug and assure me that everything will be alright.

I love you, because when i'm with you, i know everything will be okay.

I love you, because when i'm with you, i'm happy.

I love you, for everything you've done for me.

I love you, for everything you've sacrificed for me.

I love you, because you'll always forgive me.

I love you, because you'll always give in to me.

I love you, no matter what happens, no matter what you do.

I love you, N. :)

" you may be one person to the world, But you may be the world to one person."

# 24

Booz.

Just reach home, damn slpy nw. Quick post before i head to bed ;D

Yesterday, chelle reached arnd 1130 plus. Slacked, ate my medcine and went to slp cus i was real tired. 3am plus, Yongxuan spam called both of us. == Went down fetch him up. Slacked, shared ghost stories, craps, h2h talks, etc. Went down, played t/d, etc. Ordered Mac breakfast, Yongxuan treated cus he don't dare to do smth xP 8 + went Bugis w/ Chelle, yx, xy. Walked around, shopped, etc. 11 plus met Mum and Bro at Lavender. Made passports, etc. Went back bugis to have our lunch. Home arnd 3.

# 23

HIHIHI. Sorry for the lack of update. I'm busy and i seldom use com nowadays. Cyberworld's getting more and more boring.

Wednesday's

- Schl > Oppo schl > Mac > 202 w/ Ryan, Nic, Mandric, Lifang, Nichelle, Brandon > Home, AndresPangz & Aiai came ^^. Miss them alot, esp Toot cuz long time no see alr. he keep dancing ;D > Sent APGJ to bus stop, saw clare, alvin, etc > Dinner w/ Aiai > Home agn with her > Sent her home > Home

Thursday's

Schl > Oppo schl w/ usuals > Home to bathe etc > Bedok Stadium to meet w Clique xcept Zhijia > Went Qw's hse placeground there with may, ate, slacked > Bedok Simpang > Home.

Today's

Home around 6. Went expo with Kor & Sist, to buy tickets. Saw Chelle and her mum. Chatted for awhile and she followed us. Homed arnd 10. Waiting for Chelle, Xy, and maybe Yongxuan to come my hse nw ^^

Done. Fuck die life , BYE .

" Sometimes you build walls around you not to keep people out,

but to see who cares enough to break them down. "

Sometimes i rly wonder why are some people just so fucking kpo.

you're not involved in anything , you're not close with all of us, then why do you comment so much?

if you only know one side of the story, then just shut the fuck up k ? cus its nt your business at all. TYVM.

我做错选择了吗。。。？

# 22

yesterday.

Met w/ nic, mandric & yuheng > schl > slacked @ 3n2 > home > century sq, met Clare, Jialin, Shermin > Watched Percy Jacksons & the Olympians : the lightning thief. Percy Jackson's damn hot ^^ my new idol ! > Tampines inter, met Rasheed & nic > slacked under mandric's block > home @ 10+

today,

didn't attend schl. Flu + Cough + Fever.. :(

Sometimes you gotta get fucked up to feel sober, cry to see clear and fall down a hundred times before you learn to pick yourself up again.

# 21

Cny day one ;

Went around east area first , after that cabbed to Clementi. Had dinner, slacked. 7+ went over to Nicole's place with her & Germaine. waited for her to changed , after that slacked at her place awhile. took bus to Jurong Point, had Oreo cheesecake & white chocolate mocha at Starbucks. Chatted alot about horoscopes and it was super funny :D -Aquarius very kan chiong! inside joke :3 Shopped around, took bus back to Clementi. Ran back to aunt's place cus Germaine keep scaring herself & me ==. Back at aunt's place around 1020. slacked, put on masks, h2h talk, slept. home around early midnight.

don't come back when you know, you're gonna leave again.

# 20

I'm feeling really confused right now. Sometimes I really wonder if letting go and giving up is that easy.

If you think you give up on that person, then why do you still tear when he/she tell you how upset he/she is over you?
Why does your heart still ache when you think about the memories you've shared, & everything youve gone thru together?
Why do you still miss his/her smiles, silly faces?
Is it because you never tried giving up on that person, and you're just lying to yourself that did, or you just can't let go of the memories?

Idk why but I still miss you. Idk why but I still tear when I think how everything started and ended. The sweet nothings, the jokes, the silly faces, the quarrels, the harsh words, the cold wars. I'm sry.

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all the hurt i've put you thru, I just can't bear to put you thru it again. Everything you've done for me, I rly appreciate it. The breakfast, long g'night messages, inking, etc. Im sorry for the past.. And maybe, the future.

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it really hurts to know how close we were in the past and now we're almost strangers. How we use to confide in each other, how we always give each other advices, how we use to tease each other, how you always protect me. Meow, I miss you badly.. You're my best kor, I swear. My heart really ache when I think about how you ignore me nowadays. I miss how you used to protect me and wipe my tears for me. But you're not here anymore. I know I did something wrong. But i really don't know what. I'm sorry.

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fml. Badly.

# 19

Feb 6, Saturday; Simei w/ May, Qingwen, Carmen, Mary > Mary's Condo > Playground near Qingwen's place > Home @ 10 +

Feb 8 Monday; Schl > Slack w/ Nic etc > Home

Feb 9, Tuesday; Schl > Stayed back to do test > Slacked w/ Michelle, May @ Schl > Mac for dinner w/ Clique, Michelle, Anthony, Wenrui, Justin, Adison. Food war ^^> Train to tm w/ Wr, Adison, Zl & Elle > T1 to shop w/ Mummy & Elle > Home @ 10 +

Feb 10, Wednesday; Schl > Slacked @ Bball court > Home @ 6 +

Feb 11, Thursday; Schl > Kfc w/ Clique, Elle > May's place w/ her, elle & qw. > Slacked under May's block w/ Martin > May's place > Went inter w/ Martin > Met bro & Christina at inter > Home @ 10 plus

Feb 12 Friday; Schl > oppo school > martin's place w/ him, nic, lifang & xbrandon > mac > brandon's place > home > parkway w/ parents.

# 18

UPDATE SOON !

busy xD

# 17

Thursday - Hyper in schl :) Keep going around blowing people ears. xD After school, went over to May's place with Clique, except zhijia. Ate, did a lil of proj, slacked, watch dvds. had fun ^^ went mac around 8 + with Zhiling, May, Qingwen. Ate, saw Calvin ! ^^ Chatted for awhile, went back may's house with her & qw. slacked for awhile, cab home with Qingwen. Homed @ 10 :D

Friday&Today - Skipped schl on fri. Rot. Gna go have dinner w/ sister later :)

I miss the old you, i miss how we used to chat so much.

I miss how we can send each other hundreds of message daily.

I miss how we can talk about anything & everything.

I miss how happy we used to be, together.

I miss how everything used to be.

I'm sorry, for changing everything.

- Dont ask me who i'm posting about.

# 16

Boozxc , :D

Can't remember what happened last few days. Busy x.x

Schl was kinda awesome today:) After schl, met w/ Nic, Rasheed etc oppo school. Went nic's hse w/ rasheed & him, slacked. went home, after that cab to Yongxuan's place. Waiting for chelle & Justin to reach now.

Please let me get high high fever/ flu / cough / sorethroat / whatever, so i don't have to go to school T.T !!